I try never to get too comfortable with the idea of being accepted, no matter how prosperous my prospects seem. What always happens is that the minute I get complacent about my right to ‘be’, it always gets challenged so it’s better if I just assume that, sooner or later, I’ll be found to not be a proper person and politely asked to leave. It’s partly my rebellious nature – I have an inbuilt aversion to blindly carrying out orders if to do so would be destructive to my own interests or the good of humanity. Some people interpret that as unreasonable. But also, it’s to do with assumptions and impressions that are beyond my control. To wit – people often mistake me for someone who is cool that they would like to get to know.
Gorgeous picture entitled 'Teorema Metafisiro (oil on canvas 1978) from www.josephcusimano.com